Day 1 (28/7/13)

First day of being an ex gambler. Feels weird to say it, but I am seeing today as the first day of the rest of my life.  I have planned to put £800 a month of my salary into debts leaving just enough to get by on and no more for that month. in 36 months that's nearly 29k.  It makes me ill at the thought of what that kind of money could have bought.  However in 3 years time my life will look so much brighter, and still all before I am 40.  The urge to gamble isn`t even there today for which I am glad.  I am hoping my blog will be a lifeline.  Even if nobody ever reads it, the thought of it being out there is enough for me not to let anyone down, including my friends and family whom now are aware of my problems. I have only told so much, but within the next few weeks plan to tell the full story.  I feel down enough and worry I may slip into a depression.  I will not let this beat me.  Through time I will tell of my tales, and countless hours spinning the fruits and how I now fear not just for myself but the countless others who are afflicted by this terrible curse.